i almost wished you would've loved me too.

2007-05-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

I'VE SHIFTED!
le-rouugee.livejournal.com

SEE YOU! (:

2007-05-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

its friday, officially one week after leaving cvh. i miss joanna and rebecca ): but you know i still have school and they are still working there. hopefully we do keep in contact.

well, school starts on monday. at like 2pm, what a timing?! do you know how lazy i will be. just got my timetable and exams will be at the end of june. excited for school, wondering what kind of people i will meet. how the environment is like. you know so many questions.

bought some stuff for school (: gonna buy more on sun. and my treat for my gfs! lol. i bet they cant wait. right? lol :D well, im sorry if i have not been talking to your and stuff, during the whole time when i was working. i think i kinda neglected your. sorry ):

sunday will be a blast! i want it to be. haha (:

i dont feel myself this days, dont know why. sometimes i feel like im pretending to be somebody im not.

well, in any case i have to focus on important things first. which i will figure out soon.

church tmr (: and the dinner on sun! enjoy first then studying on mon. so looking forward. haha (:

2007-04-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

i know what everybody's reaction will be, FINALLY! ahaha : D

work has been quite alright. but i just cant understand some people. thinking that by taking all the credit and attention, people will notice them more and etc. but i think he doesnt deserve it at all. seriously.

but of course there is nice people there (: like adrian who never fails to make me laugh my head off, rebecca and joanna who are the sweetest (: and the rest of them are really nice too (:

so anyone who has the desire to work in the hotel industry in the future, please feel free to come to me for advice. lol (: all sessions are chargeable. AHAHA : D

come to think of it, i cant bear to leave my workplace ): well, i have to start school. which i am quite excited for (:

can you believe it, i have not received my pay! geez. i could have collected it on monday BUT the stupid far east organization spelled my name as charrisse on the cheque. so no choice, have to sent it back. i cant wait any longer you know! so many things to but for school (:

there's a wedding show at the hotel tmr, but im not involved. irene said im too expensive. lol. thats because im paid by the hour. ahaha : D

church tmr (: i can meet up with my babes! (: miss them like crazy. really!! lol (:

i need to sleep soon, super tired. goodnight (:

2007-04-01T04:23:00.000+08:00

do not ask me why im still up now. i wanted to blow dry my hair and the computer looked kinda tempting, so i switched it on and i have been using it till now. haha. and i had a heart ot heart talk with my dear girlfriend (: have not done that for ages but i really enjoyed it (: and thanks alot babe for listening to me & encouraging me (:

parade of ministries! really fun, something new & interesting. had to learn the dance in four hours but i think it was all worthwhile (: i, charisse dyeo made a mistake. somebody kill me pls. it was just so nerve-wrecking. i dont know why but unil now i still get the jitters when i go up on stage. hmmm. still wondering. lol.

i feel like taking leave on mon. as there's a bbq tmr (: kazue and yukie will be leaving on mon ): but we get to see callie's bf! ahaha : D tmr's gonna be real fun (: yayness! pls tell me shld i take leave? sacrifice my pay. lol. its going to be a no pay leave. geez.

seeking god on this will be tough. its not a issue that ppl will seek god for. i think. asking him whether i should or should not seems so wrong. i dont know. but its really killing me, squeezing the life out of me. i dont want my feelings/emotions to overule my life. you know?

it just has come to that stage. that stage where its labelled as 'youre the one for me'. and can you imagine how it feels when i dont even know whats going through your mind?

i dont want it to turn out bad, but if i dont do it. i'll be wondering and pondering.

someone tell me what to do?

2007-03-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

my apologies for not updating for umpteen of months, haha! okay not that exaggerating. but i have been really busy. my normal routine for everyday. except weekends, wake up at 7 in the morning, go to work from 0740 to 0615, take a bus home, eat my dinner, shower, slack for a little while which is the most only five minutes and then sleep. see what i mean when i call it a routine! lol : D but all in all, im going to get money so thats the only thing i look forward too.
but i've met really nice people there (: so its not really dreadful. lol.

i missed lek's birthday surprise! ): sorry girl! i shall make it up to you (: it looked really fun, but i had to go to the airport to fetch my cousins (: from japan, kazue and yukie (: miss them lots! kazue is really pretty now and yukie is super tall. super. for a girl, her height is 176! hard to imagine but it is! but thats because she plays basketball. shes like in a national team. way cool.

i feel like i have been missing out on alot of stuff ): well what to do, but its a good thing i still have three more weeks before school officially starts. excited but i have to study as though its like the end of the world. i dont want my parents to get disappointed in me. again.

tmr's parade of ministries (: sounds so fun! im hoping kazue and yukie will be able to come (: god has been good in helping me to settle down at work & meet such nice people (: and i thank him for that (:

i know its my own will of making me feel this way. no point holding on so tightly. it just has to come naturally. and if hes not the one then hes not. im sure god has someone better for me (: i just have to remind myself. sometimes my mind really goes off. way off.

well, i need my rest now. goodnight (:

2007-03-14T22:09:00.000+08:00

it has been long, i know. haha! because yours truly is working. everybody say, finally! lol (: but im kinda dreading it because i have to wake up at like 7 in the morning every morning. goodness. but i know its all for money. haha. well im doing like admin work. sitting on the chair the whole day. and im like the youngest there, seriously. but the people there are quite nice. except for one, i dont really like her. she just has the face that says stay away from me. whatever. i dont care. i just have to keep up with this till end of april and im out of there. ahaha : D

i've been missing alot of my tv programmes! lol. how i wish i could be a bum at home again. wishful thinking. haha.
i should get like some programme that has all this programs. haha. so i can watch it during the weekends. lol.

well, i thought i could wake up late on sat. but nooooo i have to wake up early again. its my grandad's death anniversary. sat will be super pack. hectic day.

nothing interesting going on. boring life. haha.

2007-03-03T00:25:00.000+08:00

ALICIA'S BIRTHDAY SURPRISE (: i hope you liked it babe! (: it was sooo much fun! and patrick is my new bf. AHAHA (:

nth new, but im gonna get a job soon. which is good. sick of rotting at home. posting results, 6 of march. geez.

2007-02-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

dont really have nice pics for this yr, its all in my cousin's camera. but it got stolen, stupid person. its all right calister! (: its not your fault. this people have nth better to do. take it from someone who's wallet got stolen in my school canteen, geez. i really dont get it, why do they put their energy into doing this sort of thing. they took the bag, took the valuables and dumped the bag at some bush. this is what i call people without brains. calister feels really bad, but its alright! (:

so, reunion dinner was great! but i think we ate a little too fast. in the end it was up to the four girls including me to finish up, boy we were stuffed. then it was watching devil wears prada. after it was time to play sparklers! we decided to light up the sparklers all at once. and its not the normal ones. you know the one with the really high pitch. and i guess i just didnt have luck that day with it. i was always the last to light the thing up! goodness. then back to my house again to countdown (: everybody was tired, so it was home sweet home (:

first day of chinese new yr! clara's house first, was there for a short period of time as we had to go to mummy's side which was quite a few places. so after clara's house was four other places and that kinda sums up the first day (:

second day of chinese new yr, grandma's house for lunch. and the long awaited curry! i tell you its the best (: i just love her cooking, since she has a lil of peranakan blood. her cooking is definitely shiok! lol. after that one house, dad's side. da por is sooo cute! she's my dad's aunt, da because she's the eldest and por por is like grandma. so yeah. haha (: then it was thai food for dinner and movie! its just so nice to watch a movie with the whole entire dyeo family (: watched the jack neo movie, calister and i thought we were going to fall asleep but in the end it was too funny to fall asleep. ahaha : D

i thought i can rest on the third day but noooo, dad's friend's place. but its all right. i get to collect money. lol. was quite bored at the beginning but rifdi kept teasing me. man, he felt it was funny. but i didnt. ahaha! (:

anyway, i didnt collect much this yr. i think. haha! i didnt get to see my god-cousin, clarissa ): she was sick. poor girl.

well that sums up the festive season and its time to lose the weight. argh.

2007-02-17T15:06:00.000+08:00

its chinese new yr, EVE (: glorious food! going to get fat but who cares its the festive season. AHAHA (: collecting those red things which is called ang pao, with ka ching! LOL (: tonight's reunion dinner will be a blast! (: catching up with clara, steamboat! watching endless dvds, and last but not least, sparkles! OOH :D

yesterday was fun! played the cheapo sparkles with the girls, why i say cheapo because it produced lots of smoke and i really do mean alot. HAHA (: met tham at town and we were just window shopping. we met this really funny guy, i think he's a tourist. he came up to us and asked us where to get chanel earrings. and tham was like there's a chanel shop at paragon. guess what his answer was, he whispered. note that, i want to get the fake ones. tham and i were controlling our laughter! such a funny guy! AHAHA (:

then we met alicia and it was off to chinatown, this place is a VERY good place to shop. but i have to warn you, do not wear pants or jeans because its super duper hot! i had no choice because there was service after that. the stuff there are like half the price of stuff in town! so it was back to town, dinner then service (:

i really have to pray hard, very hard. charisse, put your trust in god! (:

2007-02-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

i really thank god for friends (: i love my cell! dynamo all the way! (: we're each others support and strength! (:

today will be like a dedication kinda thing, haha (:

ALICIA CHUA
ALL HAIL, THE QUEEN : D three years of friendship & its all worthwhile (: the fun, laughter and tears we go through (: always being there for me, through everything and anything! you're the sweetest girl i have ever known :) and im sure your boyfriend will be such a lucky guy! ahaha :) even though this year will be a busy year for you, we'll still be able to spend time tgt okay? I LOVE MY GF <33

JEANETTE THAM
GORGEOUS! : D i know you like that right? AHAHA :) we've grown so much closer since last year & i dont regret it at all :) we're like girls aloud! she's super hilarious & oh so loud, but i still love her! im really hoping that we'll be able to get into the same school, so that we can see each other often! :) thanks for always being there for me & cheering me up :) its always great to have you around :) you know i'll always be here for you okay? :) I LOVE MY GF <33

ELIZA TANZIL
BABE! : D it has been great knowing you :) you have such a sweet smile & a oh so nice girl! :) always laughing at the slighest things and thats a good thing :) thanks for encouraging me during my down periods, really appreciate it! :) no matter what school you go into, god has a plan for you to be there alright :) i'll be there for you when you need me! :) LOVESS <3

JAEL TAN & DANIA CHAN
THE TWO PEAS IN A POD! : D they are always tgt, without fail! :) you'll never see them apart, maybe sometimes..AHAHA :) thanks for all the laughter your bring during cell & at dinner :) pls come with us for dinner soon k? LOL : D jael, my kindergarden mate! everything she wears is so stylish! :) such a pretty girl : D dania, always disturbing me huh?! : D but i have my ways too! shes a really sweet girl :) LOVESS <3

DINESH,CHARLES & WEI PING
MY BEST GUY-FRIENDS! : D all the bus rides home are never the same without all of your :) the jokes and the laughter are something that i will always remember :) the really lame jokes that wei ping says, dinesh always disturbing wei ping and charles whose mood is always up and down but he's nice :) i hope this friendship that we have will be something thats worthwhile! :)

i think thats about it, haha :) im gonna to sleep now, actually no..talking to tham on the phone :)

2007-01-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

i always thought it was still a long way, but now its right infront of me..deep inside i really dont wish to go, but i know it will make you happy..this job you're currently in now, is not up to your standard or thats what i claim..but by leaving i will have to give up everything here & it will not be a easy task..

i may sound a little emo, but seriously its quite serious..my dad is going for a job interview in brisbane this sun, if he gets it our whole family will be going there for a whole three yrs..and i will be the first to go with my dad..to my parents it may seem like a good thing, but to me its not..

letting go of everything here will not be esy, you may say its three yrs but in three yrs many things can happen..im just feeling quite moody this few days, because of this current situation..im really seeking god and asking him if this is the right thing & that is what he wants us to do..

in the mean time, i have to mentally get prepared.

on top of that, results will be coming out soon..i just want to pass, i just want to be able to go somewhere..thats all i ask for..

its just so hard for me to even look at you, knowing that its all nothing.

2007-01-26T12:16:00.000+08:00

all thanks to my siblings, the computer cant be use..only today is exceptional, because my brother has to send something to my dad..at least they didnt lock the tv or else i would be suffering ):

the swellness has gone down alot and its all thanks to some cream which i call the miracle medicine (: HAHA! mum should have given it to me long ago but she forgot, but i dont blame her since she's busty with work and stuff (:

results are going to be out on the second week of feb! nervous,excited,mixed feelings? but why does it have to ruin v-day & cny? actually v-day is not really a big thing for me, i was so bored that day that i actually came up with this slogan, happy day for couples & sad day for singles..really dumb, i know..LOL (: im sure when we go visting, all the relatives will come up to you, swarming you with questions..so not enjoyable ):

i love this song from hillsongs,

At the cross

At the cross i bow my knee,

Where your blood was shed for me,

There's no greater love than this.

You have overcome the grave,

Your glory fills the highest place,

What can seperate me now.

2007-01-19T21:14:00.000+08:00

Wherever you go,

Whatever you do,

I will be right here, waiting for you,

Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks,

I will be right here waiting for you (:

2007-01-17T15:22:00.000+08:00

when boredom strikes again (:

FAVOURITE
Kind of pants: skinny jeans/pants
Number: 08 (:
Animal: dogs & hamsters
Drink: green tea
Sport: swimming
Month: december, xmas!
Cartoon character: not sure.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been close to dying: NOOO.
Loved someone so much it made you cry: sadly, yes
Broke a bone: nope
Played truth or dare: yes
Ran away: not daring to do so, lol :D
Broke someones heart: hmmmm
Cried over someones death: yes
Cried in school: yes
Fell off your chair: yes, who hasnt? (:
Saved e-mails: yes
Used someone: nooo

WHAT IS..
Your good-luck charm: god? not really good luck but my protector (:
Your favorite song: mighty to save, hillsongs (:
Next to you: my bro's bed
Your pet peeve: ?
Motivations: friends & family (:

EVER HAD..
Chicken Pox: yess
Soar throat: of course
A one night stand: no way!

DO YOU..
Believe in love at first sight: at times
Long distance relationships: there must be trust (:
Like school: yesss! i miss school!
Get along with your family: yess (:
Wear contact lenses or glasses: both
Like filling out surveys: when im really bored, lol :D
Like yourself: i guess i do (:

WHO..
Was the last person who called you: leon
Makes you smile the most: my babes, alicia & jeanette! (:
Knows you best: my mum, alicia & jeanette (:

ARE YOU..
Obsessive complusive: no way!
Suicidal: bigger NO

YESTERDAY DID YOU..
Talk to someone you liked: how i wish
Buy something: no
Get sick: nope
Miss someone: YESSS ):
Talk to an ex: yupp

LAST PERSON WHO..
Slept in your bed: myself? :D
Saw or heard you cry: some of my cell people
Went to the movies with: not one person, a group of them (:
Told you they loved you: my lil brother (:
You said I love you to: said it back to my lil brother (:
You fought with: my sister?
You made fun of: my sister (:
Made fun of you: leon! haha (:

PICK ONE..
Are you righty or lefty: righty
Scary or Funny movie: funny (:
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate!
Coffee or Tea: coffee, starbucks!
Summer or Winter: winter (:
Diamond or Pearl: diamonds, ooh :D
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
Strawberry or Watermelon: watermelon
Citrus or Berry: berry

RANDOM
Hated anyone in your family: noooo
Good singer: not very sure.
What was your last dream about: that i had a golden retriever! (:
When did you last shower: last night?
What book are you reading now: none
Best feeling in the world: being loved (: & being happy!
What's underneath your bed: dust particles?
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
What are you most scared of right now: RESULTS!!
Are you lonely right now: not really.
Song thats stuck in your head right now: gia farrell, hit me up!
First thing you notice on opposite sex: eyes & smile
Are you to shy to ask someone out: yess
What are you wearing right now: tee and shorts
Favorite flower: roses & daises (:
How many pillows do you sleep with: 2
Single or Taken: sadly, single

2007-01-15T19:01:00.000+08:00

i just love all this icons sent by the oh so wonferful jeanette (: AHAHA! well, i finally did the surgery and boy i tell you its sooo uncomfortable ): at least it will only be for three days, but for full recovery it will take at least two weeks..

staying at home every single day is not something to enjoy..i think i really need to ask my aunt is she needs extra help (: i cant wait for next week's service cos we can wear our school uniform! haven worn for it for i dont know how long..LOL :D jeanette was thinking of exchanging, polka dots? (: i wanna wear SA's uniform but i am not from there, so yeah..as alicia said, canossian..BAHA :D its sacian babe..lol..tham, i'll consider okay? & not because of you know what..haha (: keith! you better come next week, im warning you! LOL :D

is it just me or am i thinking too much? am i making the right choice? to continue or not, thats the question..it just makes me really wonder..

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

And cannon ball into the water

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

For you I will

2007-01-11T14:22:00.000+08:00

I've been wishing on a star but
I never could have imagined
I would land just where you are after all this lonesome travelling
Took one look in your eye, reached out to hold your hand
This is when I realized what I could never understand

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

So you wanna be my friend, so you wanna be my lover
With you I do confess I can't be one without the other
That was hard for me to say, I hope I said it right
Which ever, come what may, you see I need to know tonight

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

Do you want to play these cards, do you want to lay them down?
Do you want to run away or do you want to stick around?

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

its either one or the other

2007-01-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

god is really good (: the rain was on & off, tham sang the rain song and all i could do was pray (: to our surprise, the moment we stepped into siloso beach it stopped raining! and mr sun was out (: it was super hot! tham was quite annoyed with this bunch of guys, i was a little..could see they were showoffs..haha! and i one point i learnt today, ang mohs are really very open..we saw this lady from far and i thought she was pregnant, because the size of her stomach was huge..it actually turn out not as i expected..and she was like a middle age lady..

must really look up to this people man, so daring! well we tanned and crapped..after a while, we got kind of bored so we decided to head down to vivo..for your info, its my first time there..i know your gonna think, so long still haven go..BUT, its quite far from where i stay luhs..haha! the place is just really big, the sky garden looks simple but tham said its nicer at night (: after walking around, we headed to tham's house..which is just three bus stops away..so convenient right? (:

today i ate alot, and i really do mean alot..didnt take much pictures but its okay (: i got to spend time with my gf! (: i cant wait till my sister gets her hamsters, tham's hamster is so cute! bacon (: but shes sick, so poor thing ): i hope she gets well soon! (:

well, i think i need my rest now (:

2007-01-09T11:59:00.000+08:00

wet, rainy weather ): when boredom comes, this is what i'll do..took this from gf's blog (: hope you dont mind (:

INTRODUCTION:
Full Name: Charisse Dyeo Pei Xuan
Birthday: 27 September1989
Birthplace: Singapore
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: A little of red and brown(cos i dyed my hair before)
Height: 163cm
Weight: Cant be disclosed :D
Right handed or Left handed? Right
Your Heritage: Chinese
My Worst Habit: Commenting on people & thinking too much
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Shoe Size: 7
Parents Still Together? yes
The Footwear You Wore Today: didnt go out today
Your Weakness: quite a handful
Your Fears: failures
Your Perfect Pizza: lotsa cheese pls? (:
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: LOL (:
Thoughts First waking up: what im going to do for the day
Your Best Physical Feature: dont have one :x
Bedtime: depends
Your Most Missed Memory: friends and teachers in SAC!

MY FAVORITES:
Favorite color? Red, gold, green, black, silver
Food? I love food! (:
Sport? swimming & cycling
Animal? Dogs
Ice Cream? mango,chocolate chip & mint chocolate chip
Candy? anything will do.
Store? no fav.
Salad Dressing? no fav.
Actor/actress/band? channing tantum,rachel bilson,98 degrees (:
Song?: too many!
Letter? not too sure (:
Number? 08
Holiday? Europe,Australia and Hawaii
Season? winter!
Toothpaste Flavor? Minty
Radio Station: 98.7 fm
Perfume? Escada
Body part on the opposite sex? smile (:

FRIENDS AND LIFE:
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? a good wife & have a good job
How Do You Want To Die? with the one i love (:
Turn ons: people who love to smile (:
Turn offs: hypocrites.
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You? JEANETTE :) we're so alike!
Who's The Loudest? jeanette, eunice and sometimes me! :D
Who Makes You Laugh The Most? all my friends do (:
Who Have You Known The Longest? some of the sec 5s :)
Who's The Shyist? nobody i think.
When have you cried the most?: cant remember.
What Is The Best Feeling In The World? Being loved (:
Worst Feeling? Being lonely.
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up? anywhere with my future husband :D
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be? My temper.
How Long Do You Think You'll Live? ask my God :D

HAVE YOU EVER:
Been In Love? Yesss (:
Been To Juvie? No
Mooned Someone?: No
Been rejected?: Yes
Pictured Your Crush Naked? No, eeww!
Skipped School? Skipped lessons, yes (:
Thought About Suicide? No.
Slept Outside? guess so.
Laughed So Hard You Cried? Yupp.
Cried In School? Yes
Thrown Up In School? No.
Wanted To Be a Model? Cant qualify.
Cheated On Someone? Hard to answer.
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today? yupp.
Seen A Dead Body? Yes
Drank Alcohol? Yes
Smoked? NO! UGH.
Been On Drugs? NO!
.Eaten Sushi? Yes, love it!
Been On Stage? Yes
Gone Skinny Dipping? LOL! NO
Shoplifted? NO!
Been Drunk? No
Been Beaten Up? No

DO YOU:
Swear? when im really pissed.
Sing Well? No way
Shower Daily?: Yes
Want To Go To College? Yes
Want To Get Married? Yes
Believe In Yourself? Sometimes
Get Motion Sickness? No
Think You Are Attractive? No
Get Along With Your Parents? on & off
Like Thunderstorms? NO!
Play An Instrument? piano but a little only
Own An IPOD? Nope
Pray? Yes
Go To Church? Yes, and i'm loving it :)
Sleep With Stuffed Animals? Nope
Keep A Journal/Diary? Yes
Dance In The Rain? No, walked in the rain :)
Sing In The Shower? Yess (:

THIS OR THAT:
Pepsi or Coke? Coke
McDonald's or Burger King? Macs
Single or Group Dates? single
Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries? Strawberries
Meat or Veggies? Meat
TV or Movie? Movie
Guitar or Drums? Guitar
Adidas or Nike? Nike
Chinese or Mexican? Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes? Corn Flakes
Cake or Pie? Cake
MTV or VH1? MTV
Blind or Deaf? none
Boxers or Briefs? Boxers

CAN YOU:Do
Splits? i wish i could
Write With Both Hands? YES (:
Whistle? Yes
Blow A Bubble? Yes
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle? No
Cross Your Eyes? No
Walk With Your Toes Curled? Yes
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose? Nope
Dance? everyone can
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry? at times

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:
You Touched: LOL, my mum
You Talked To On The Phone: mel
You Text: jeanette & alicia
You Instant Messaged: jeanette
You Hugged: alicia
You Yelled At: younger brother
You Played A Sport With: cant remeber! :D

WHAT'S THE LAST:
Time You Laughed? yesterday when i was talking to keith
Time You Cried? cant remeber when.
Movie You Watched? the holiday (:
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed? the minty kind.
Joke You Told? not that i remember, LOL (:
Song You've Sung? i believe from honey soundtrack

RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT:
Where Are You? at home, in front of the computer
What Can You See Out Your Window? swimming pool & the other blocks
Are You Listening To Music? say goodbye, chris brown
What Are You Wearing? fbts & school PE tee
What's On Your Mousepad? the mouse?

BELIEFS:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? No
Do you believe in miracles? Yess with god, everything is possible (:
Magic? No
Love at first sight? guess so
God? YESS! DEFINETLY! :D
Satan? yeah!
Ghosts? No
Santa? No
Evolution? No

IN A BOY...:
Fav Eye Color: Doesn't really matter
Fav Hair Color: Natural is the best (:
Short or Long Hair: Short
Height: Taller than me (:
Weight: Doesn't matter..
Best Clothing Style: Whatever they like.

RANDOM:
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit? Europe
Number Of CD's I Own: a handful
Your Good Luck Charm: dont have one
How many pillows do you sleep with? 2 (:
Do you drink milk? Not really, prefer soya bean milk (:
Person You Hate Most: hate is too strong, detest?
Do you think God has a gender? hmmm.
Where do you think we go when we die? Heaven (:
How many rings until you answer the phone? not sure, once it rings i just pick it up
Are you a health freak? Not really
What is the worst weather?: when its humid!
Did you play with Barbies as a child? Yess and polly pockets (:
How many grades have you failed? not very sure, have to check my report book (:

im finally done! ahaha (: now i have to go think of other things to do..

2007-01-07T14:24:00.000+08:00

ignyte launch was a blast! :D had to reach church at 9 am but it was all worth it :) the high-ness in the toliet while doing make up, disturbing alicia, singing at the top of our voices :) it was all so fun! i <3 the dance ministry! :D

haven been blogging for the longest time as my internet crashed, thanks to the earthquake in wherever..but its all right now (:

now if i wrote you a love note,
and make you smile at every word i wrote,
what would you do?

2006-12-29T14:06:00.000+08:00

another bbq today and i think my throat will be worse than ever at this rate ): but i get to see my classmates again! (: had a dance bbq on wed, the weather was bad but it didnt spoil our mood (: sis cherie's house is super uber nice! its all white! best colour for a house (: simple yet chic..haha..ate like nobody's business and that wei ping would count the number of times i took food! ugh..but tham and i were irritating him till the others took pity of him! HAHA..but wei ping is just SO fun to irritate! right tham? LOL..played games and had the urge to swim, tham couldnt cos she wore a skirt..claudia is so cute! she was like i dont want to swim if both of your not swimming(ref to tham and i) so in the end i swam with her (: it started to pour again but we didnt care much..then alicia's dad sent us to the bus stop & it was time to head home(:

had dance practice at ITE simei ystd (: all the mirrors and everybody practically became high! esp wei ping! that was super unforgettable, its a sight of wei ping that i think your will never be able to see again! HAHA :D the babes came up with a super grand entrance and i can bet it will sure blow you off! (: i cant wait for ignyte launch! :D

meeting tmr at 9 am! it has been forever since i woke up that early..man..dance practice from 1030-2pm (: and off to tham's house to get myself clean! (: LOL..watchnight service on sun, how fast time flies as its just three days away to 2007 (:

to me, youre everything

2006-12-26T02:09:00.000+08:00

i cant believe im still awake at this time..its 2am and i have dance practice tmr at 1230..yayness :D i guess i was just thinking abt stuff..well, had xmas service today :) holland village to eat, then SGH to visit my aunt..im really praying hard that the results tmr will be good news..after it was off to town to meet my babes plus marcus,mingxian,his sister and this other guy whom i forgot his name(really sorry :x)

watched the holiday, really nice show..touching yet funny :) its a must watch :D the ending was so touching that gf and i teared a little :x i was not suppose to say but im included too so i guess its okay? LOL :D after the movie we headed to gf's house..ate,crapped and other stuff :) i just love to spent time with my babes in this way :)

i think i have to really accept the fact, in a way i have but its not to the fullest..i guess its all history now but the memories will stay..as it states memories..from time to time that it will remembered..

this is just the beginning :D but i cant set my hopes so high, i dont want to end up miserable and full of regret..even if it takes everything to do it, i will :)

with you around, its sunshine & smiles

2006-12-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

it has been raining non-stop for the past few days..was practically rotting at home today! but its alright, at least i have smth to look forward to tmr (: i can step out of the house..LOL..

i cant wait for ignyte launch! (: endless dance practices but its all worth it! (: and with khing and wei ping around its alot of crapping and laughter..dance practices are never a bore (: alicia is the best leader, wont your agree? jia you babe! (:

CELEBRATE was a blast! even though it rained, it did not spoil the christmas mood..the place was done up and boy was it nice! so pretty (: i could feel the christmas mood! christmas is in 5 days time! woo hoo (: the food was not too bad and we girls got the opportunity to get our food first..advantages of being a girl (: everybody looked good that night (: took pics and alicia should be VERY happy..haha! tham you should feel bad okay! LOL (:

all i want for christmas is you.

2006-12-15T22:49:00.000+08:00

camp was awesome! (: HELEZ is the best! dont you agree? haha..the way god works is very powerful and i will not let it stop just here (: i love my group sooooo much! we had so much fun together, when it was time to even seek god, we were always together as a team (:

i cant wait for the christmas party thats coming up! dress up and look nice (: the place, hilltop restaurant..like how cool that is!

gave mel a birthday surprise today! (: you should have seen how shock she was! LOL..went to get mel's shoes, then had sakae for dinner (: ooh, yummy! then walked around as we were very full..after we went home as mel was leaving for hk tmr..have fun there girl! (:

i didnt know i could

2006-12-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

im back :) hongkong was not that bad after all, beside the fact that i had to stay with 4 cats..yes in the same house..the things i did there was eat, walk, shop and more shopping..the number of things i bought 4 bags, a pair of shades, a belt, lots of accessories :) best place to shop and cheap too! but i really missed my friends too! EVERYONE :)

i really dont know why it always has to happen this way..do you think i want it? its not as easy as you say it is..it isnt, trust me..

2006-11-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you i don't love you
It's the hardest thing
I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion
When you start to cry
I can't let you see
What you mean to me
When my hands are tied
And my hearts not free

in the end, i am the one at stake.

2006-11-24T14:31:00.000+08:00

i just came back from the chalet :) it was SUPER fun! :)) but i missed my bed la..haha!

FIRST DAY
met up at mel's place to marinate the stingray and stuff like that..then eunice's dad came to pick us up, reached the chalet..it was raining so heavily! so erica couldnt go to the room, neither eunice and mel could go out of the room..before we knew it, it was already 5 and the bbq started :) cherie,geok,gwen,grace and perlie came..we ate, crapped around and all that stuff..everybody got stuck to the tv from 8 plus all the way to 11..tried to sleep but couldnt as mel and i were hungry in the middle of the night..haha!

SECOND DAY
woke up at 7 plus becuase of the stupid birds making so much noise..but we went back to sleep again until 10 plus..went to macs for breakfast, then tanning! the sun was superr hot and i really mean hot..but our tan was not that nice..LOL..went back to the room, all we did was eat, sleep, play games..we couldnt take it so we went to macs again to eat dinner..played card games till we went high and this time everybody was able to sleep peacefully..haha (:

THIRD DAY
so we checked out at 1030, and headed straight for home..first thing i did was to dump all my dirty laundry..haha..and next to eat a nice meal..LOL (:

well, thats about it (:

i cant read your mind.

2006-11-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

let me tell you the good news, O'S ARE FINALLY OVER!! (:

so many plans going on..shopping! CHALET! going to hk! camp! (: i cant wait! finally stepped into town, christmas lightings were super duper nice! got into the christmas mood (: eunice, mel and i were crappy, only at night..HAHA..i love you girls (:

watch step up, channing tatum..the hottest man alive & the cutest..the show is smth like take the lead but take the lead is still the best!

cant wait for the chalet on wed! (: it will be fun, fun, fun!

i cant go on like this.

2006-11-18T12:19:00.000+08:00

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything (:

~~i thought i could~~

2006-11-15T11:15:00.000+08:00

i have been sick since sun..it all started with just a flu and sore throat then it became worse as i started having fever and headache..felt so sick that i just stayed in bed for like almost the whole night..and the worst part, every on hr i would get up to..vomit..ugh..

BUT im well now :) i better be because there's exams today and exams end in SIX MORE DAYS :)) the amount of things i can do after exams is just sooooo much :)

2006-11-09T17:48:00.000+08:00

hello (:
this is jeanette here, charisse's bestest girlfriend! AHAHHA! okays, that was self proclaim! but i bet she loves me to bits and of cos, her other friends who are all so precious to her! i love charisse ~~cos she's always so nice to tease and bully!~~ she can be such a fool at times! oh! charisse is going to get baptised this sat :D :D everyone say OH HAPPY DAY! :)

anyways, charisse is a free girl now (: no more worries for her! who needs guys when you've got all the best girl friends in the world who loves you so dearly right?! JIAYOU for Os okays?! and then after that, we'll party like crazy okays? and we'll have our sleepovers and movie marathon and shopping sprees (: and and, i've changed your layout like you said (: and i think it's pretty! lols, a more cheery layout! not so dark :D stay happy and crappy okays?! [:

I LOVE CHARISEE DYEO :D

i'm out! till then, loves (:

2006-11-06T22:36:00.000+08:00

i know i said that i'll update after o levels but it seems like my blog's getting a little bit boring..lol (: its just two more weeks before this whole trauma ends! i have like a long list of what to do when it ends, i know i should be concentrating on my studies rather than this but its hard..trust me (: you know its just the anticipation..haha..

today maths paper was not that bad..social studies, dont wanna talk about it..UGH..so now i know my humanities will never be good..

well, water baptism is this sat..quite nervous..imagine how i'll feel when the day comes..but its a good thing..its like commiting to the lord :)

i didnt know it would be that easy.

2006-10-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION! i'll be back to update soon, like maybe after o levels? its a promise :))

2006-09-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

grad night is officially OVER..alll the planning for just three hours plus but it was worthwhile :) oh and i have smth to announce, gloria won MISS SAC for her class! :) like how funny is that..the whole crowd went wild just cheering for her..LOL..

mummy forgot to bring the cam so pictures taken are like all over the place so i have to slowly get it from people..haha..after grad our clique headed down to town..drank starbucks and felt like i was about to puke..ate swensens but i didnt..wan ying was super high..talking to a chilli sauce bottle..goodness..i left early, wasnt feeling well..

so its back to studies, man not enjoyable at all! but it isnt much of a choice..sat was church day! was super lazy so i took a cab down to church..lols..they surprised me with a birthday cake! :) so sweet..specially made by alicia! thanks girl :) OH and i received something and i cant tell you how happy i was..undescribable :))

please do not leave me in the lurch

2006-09-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

maths paper yesterday was tough, i am sure many people will agree with me too..will i pass? i dont know but all i have to do now is pray :) you know i just realise that o levels are like in a month or two..man like how time flies when at the beginning of the year i was still waiting for christmas or something..

cam whoring on sat was fun but it was only me, tham and jael..lols..but i think i look like crap tht day pls! i wish we could do more of this :) just hanging out and chilling with my grilfriends!

1o MORE DAYS TO GRAD NIGHT :) we had like some sort of meeting yesterday after our paper..haha..a question to ponder over, make up or hair first?

gwen suggest that i should do my hair like ashley tisdale, dont know whether i will look nice..

i am leaving the past behind.

2006-09-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

i dont know why but my brother always gets his way and i find it so unfair, i always have to get the blame for everything.

i have nothing more to write because im not really in the mood to do so.

i just dont want to accept the fact that you're not mine anymore.

2006-09-05T12:15:00.000+08:00

today's entry will be dedicated to my girlfriends! i looove them so much :) i love all the times we had, being able to tell them every single problem i have..always there for me no matter what :) we will stick with each other through thick and thin! :]

REMEMBER OUR CAMWHORING ON SAT! :) LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS!! :]

2006-08-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

prelims have officially started and i guess i can say i am somewhat prepared? english prelims went well, at least i knew what i wanted to write :) social studies? please what else more can i say? tsk..went tanning after ss paper, and the sun was HOT! and the results..red like a lobster..well, my face not that bad la but my body..goodness..better get ready for the peeling part..i sound like some kind of snake..lols..

had practicals today..woke up late! haha (: i think it was alright..hope i will able to pass..accompanied eunice to meet cindial and others..then parkway to study..the bus was so crammed and smelly! lols :]

teacher's day celebration tmr! half day :) yayness! gonna watch a movie, i think :) cheerios :]

i just cant let you go.

2006-08-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

I LOVE HYUN BIN :))

2006-08-19T10:37:00.000+08:00

I'm the one who wants to be with you.
deep inside.
i hope you feel it too.
waited on a line of greens and blues.
just to be the next to be with you.

this song brings back memories :) just to let you know it wont be easy for me and it really needs to take time.

well, i really dont know whats happpening in our clique and i hope this doesnt become worse.

2006-08-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

ONE WEEK TO PRELIMS!!
i dont even know whether im panicking or not..goodness..i have to study! i have like two things to look forward too :) josh said that if i get a A1 for one subject he'll treat me..and so did aurelia :) yayness! at least i have something to look forward too! :)

oh i lost one side of my contacts, mum got so angry..goodness..have to spent so much to buy one again..lols..so now im stuck with my really ugly specs! ugh..

dont really know what to writ already, so im gonna end here :) toodles!

i guess it should have been this way the whole time.

2006-08-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

its national day, another public holiday (: went over to my mum's friend's house..i was quite bored there but what to do..had to mingle with the adults..haha! (:

lets talk about yesterday! my last year participating in the school's sport carnival..this year there wasnt any track events it was all games..played some game called human wheel and boy was it funny..poor suzana fell down so many times because she was like in the front..haha..after went to mel's house to tan! (: had tons of fun! especially reg who kept making a fool out of herself..haha..but i love her anyhow..

rushed down to marcus house for our section gathering (: alicia,tham,lek,sherlyn and i kept ourselves entertain by playing at the playground..haha..we were like kids! but it was fun (: i was soooooo happy to see lek again, it has been long! left around 10 plus and i was dead tired..rushed home to meet up with my cousins! first thing i did when i stepped into the house was i hugged clara! i miss that girl lots (: watched she's the man..super fun! slept at like 1 plus..haha..

so thats about what i did (: but now it will soon be time to study and mug..CRYS! oh one more thing, charmaine is coming back! yay :)

thoughts of you just begin to pour in.

2006-08-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE :)
she is seventeen already..her party just ended a few mins ago..lols..it was a surprise party from US :) like how sweet can we get! haha..she got a brownie cake like she wished and we helped her fix her bed! imagine nine girls fixing a bed..it was a double deck bed too..anyway it was fun! LOVE YA EUNICE :)

there was lunchtime concert today..aurelia was dancing and she looks really funny in the jersey..haha! im sorry aurelia! :) lols..we had to like stand on the canteen table..goodness! school has been hectic and the no of months left to o levels is THREE months..hooray for me..im seriously not in mood of studying..how?

if only the past could repeat itself.

2006-07-30T18:55:00.000+08:00

so i guess you knew but what difference does it make?

I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL :) im seriously in love with it..especially zac efron such a cutie! haha..anyway, i always tell myself to study but do you think i can ever suceed? noooooo! which totally sucks..mock exams coming, prelims and the list goes on..

and my wallet hasnt and will not be found..plus o levels are coming soon and i like need those important cards you know..so irritating! school has been the same as usual but finally charmaine can come back! :) yayness!

im kinda bored so i decided to write this,people i miss:
SAINTSIX :)
MY CHURCH FRIENDS :)
BESTIE :)

i miss you so.

2006-07-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

Say that you love
Say im the one
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama
My tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last

(Chorus) I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die
So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I'll never leave you
So don't even ask
I want a love that will last Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

i guess all i really need is you <3

2006-07-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

school was ultimately fun today :) but i was kinda dumb, going to school earlier than usual when i am not suppose to have lessons today..irritating..

bio was a free period because she didnt come yet again..mariah thinks the teacher is mr hot from far away..like what? lols..crapping like mad and laughing away like mad..PC was really fun, we like got to blindfold our partner and lead them around the school..reg aka dumb blonde was blindfolded together with gwen and mel..eunice, grace and i were having ALOT of fun..trust me :)

skipped tutorials..haha..like how good i am huh..lols..accompanied eunice to cut her hair..she doesnt really like it but i think its nice :) after went to mel's house and i kinda had a makeover..only if it had facials and all that would have been the full package..haha..

i thought it over and i have decided just to stick as friends..it ended just like that..

2006-06-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

i had dance practice tdy..tiring as usual but i went to watch x-men..i know im a lil outdated but let me tell you the show is real good..watched it with the st gabs people and i was the only girl mind you..how awkward that felt..lols (:

cameron highlands was not too bad but not much shopping, more of sightseeing..there was a night market near the hotel but very small variety..but on top of that i had fun (: well i did manage to get a new wallet from KL which is about it..haha..

i miss you so, really

2006-05-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are king over the flood
I will be still, know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

2006-05-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

haven been here for the longest time..my week hasn't been very good..my results ae dreadful, its just so miserable..the fact is i know im stupid and i just cant achieve the results i want..even how i hard i try, its just so unreachable..i dread whats coming up later..meeting the teacher..that will be commencing in a few hours time..i passed one subject..ONE FREAKING SUBJECT!! its like my whole esteem has been dragged down into the pits..

i even have second thoughts of quitting school, it makes things so much easier..even though the teachers may say that they dont want to see us leave, but seriously in their hearts they want us too except mrs yip, shes one of a kind and i feel so bad letting her down..i really do..

this entry will be kinda depressing, because thats how i feel now..

2006-05-12T18:44:00.000+08:00

im at my aunt's house..slacking away..haha..exams are finally over but i still have my chinese o levels..having chinese lessons every day of the week..which totally sucks..i detest chinese..alot!

i manage to buy the top :) yayness..i like spoilt some accessory from bugis street..goodness i was such a klutz..and after the whole incident i was like in a daze..i didnt have the mood to continue shopping..the shop owner has my contact number but i dont wanna pay her back..its eight plus you know..kinda waste of my money..

memories of you is a constant torment, im really tired.

2006-04-29T11:37:00.000+08:00

mid yr exams started yesterday..both my composition was about death..wrote my chinese compo till i nearly cried becuase i suddenly remembered abt my grandfather..i still miss him even though it was two years ago..
anyway im not say fully prepared for exams , i think i can just prepare to head on to you know where..i thought i could do it but when i think about it..it seems as though its not able to accomplish..i am tired physically and emotionally..people encourage me and i really thank them :) but it just cant be help, i dont want to stick this way..i really dont want to..i step into the exam hall with fear..

i really hope i can turn time back, i cherish that peiod that we had evn though it was short..i want you back in my life..I MISS YOU <3

2006-04-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

i have sth to announce, world war III just started in the evening..the whole trip from school to home was atrocious..eunice, gloria and i didnt have peace at all..because there was a pest bugging us right from the start..and shes super random, telling us that her house has ice cream? lols :) geok ling this is dedicated to you! haha.

studied in school tdy but practically after a while we got distracted and started to doodle in each other's book..lols..at the rate im going i dont think im going to do well! oh no..i need motivation!

im not really in a mood..i think i screwed up stuff..i dont know..

2006-04-05T17:42:00.000+08:00

currently at alicia's house :) i think im gonna screw up my chinese prelim orals..i was so nervous man..ugh totally sucks!

anyway on a better note, im gonna see him tmr! ahaha :) like finally :))
going for the sajc concert..life concert :) its some christian worship thing..but i can see him, thats all..lols..

school has been super hectic, homework, homework, homework..so irritating! but its just reality..goodness..

well, i've got nothing much to say..toodles :) oh one more thing, I LOVE ALICIA :))

2006-03-10T15:52:00.000+08:00

in the school library now..suppose to be doing self study..but never mind..lols :D school holidays have officially started! tanning,shopping lots of things to do :) i just cant wait but on top of that i still have tons of holiday hw..so irritating..disadvantage of being a student taking o levels.

change of sitting arrangement in class! i sooo love it..sitting beside charmaine and eunice :) behind me is pilar,simmu and mariah :D woo hoo..mr chan was super nice to us today, it was kinda freaky..gwen said that we backstabbed him in a way..lols..thats funny!

i tell you some people just get on my nerves..so freaking irritating..their faces can just spoil my day..my goodness..

gonna end here, toodles :D

2006-02-19T19:42:00.000+08:00

school has been a wreck..test,homework,staying back till 5pm EVERYDAY..its like i have no life anymore..mid yr exam for chinese tmr..think i have studied..nooooo..who would study chinese..gosh!

went for the acjc carnival ystd :) the amt of cute guys can make me swoon..well the place is very BIG! and i mistook the void deck for the canteen..sheesh..spent the whole ticket o food..goodness..haha :) was desperately looking out for alicia's eye candy..lols..and there was this particular guy that i kept bumping into..oh man he's cute i tell you..he's from acsi and he participated in the SEA games too :) haha..

anyway, gotta go :)

2006-02-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

2006-01-31T14:14:00.004+08:00

Everybody knows that I was such a fool to ever let go of you
Baby I was wrong
Yeah I know I said we'd be better off alone
It was time that we moved on
I know I broke your heart, I didn't mean to break your heart
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

I know you're in there and you can make me wait
But I'm not gonna wait
It's the least that I can do, just to tell you face to face
I was lying to myself, now I'm dying in this hell
Girl I know you're mad, I can't blame you for being mad
But baby here I am

Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and now I'm crawling back to you
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in?
I was running from the truth and now I'm crawling back to you

If you could see these tears I'm crying
Touch these hands that can't stop shaking
Hear my heart that's barely beating
You will see a different man

But baby here I am
Banging on your front door
My pride spilled on the floor
My hands and knees are bruised and I'm crawling back to you
(come on)
Begging for a second chance
Are you gonna let me in? (let me in)
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you

Banging on your front door (darling)
My pride spilled on the floor
I was running from the truth, now I'm crawling back to you,
yeah
Now I'm crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you
Crawling back to you

2006-01-28T19:56:00.000+08:00

270106
our school didnt have a cny celebration, how sucky is that..we had a full day of school..how interesting..tsk..anyhow i rushed back home after school to meet alicia to watch, MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA :))
i tell you that show is a MUST watch..its touching, lovely and nice..i dont know why some people can say its draggy, boring, etc..hmmm..i tell you zhang ziyi and michelle yeoh are HOT! after the movie i had to rush to church because i was gonna be late for service..service was all right..

280106
renunion dinner! ooh am at my cousin's house still :) ate steamboat :)) and we're gonna have chocolate fondue!! OOH..anyway cant wait for tomorrow..new clothes, ang pao :) gotta go! toodles!

2006-01-26T16:45:00.000+08:00

school's tiring..haven been here for quite a while, actually not awhile..very long..lols..school work has been piling up like nobody's
business..we even have work assigned during the cny holidays..ugh! it sucks to be taking o levels, i bet many people will be able to agree
with me..lols :)

everybody else has someone, but me? i dont..that feeling is indescribable..if you think its painful i can agree with you because thats what im
going through now..i do like someone now but i ask myself is it worth hanging on? my feelings are true for this person but the thing is this person likes
someone else and its like way more then the universe..im trying to pull through, maybe i will..i dont know..

well on a better note, cny is coming and my piggy bank will get a little heavier :) SEC 5/2 ROCKS :))

2006-01-15T13:37:00.000+08:00

school's started and i tell you its not a blast..homework has been flowing in like a river..tsk..at least chinese new year is coming..something to look forward too :)

its over, seriously nth goes the right way..never..im tired of asking myself already..

i have nth interesting to say..my brain has been fried..

2005-12-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

it has been forever but im here! like finally..lols..i knw it has become a lil dusty so i am here to clear it up :) well today was the most boring day of my life..my siblings have gone for church camp and i actually, i do miss those two racals..tsk..

i've got smth to say, CHURCH CAMP WAS A BLAST :)) i tell you god is so powerful :) i have never experience this in my life, i cant put it in words..and i love all the people in my camp group..ALERT ROCKS :)) weeeeee..im high! LOLS..
IGNYTE MINISTRY :) ooh..i just love the sound of that name..his purpose, my generation..the theme of the new ministry :))

oh man..i have to wait until the 21st of dec..so long!!!! i miss you babe, so much

2005-11-07T17:35:00.000+08:00

Hold on little girl
show me what he's done to you
Stand up little girl
A broken heart can't be that bad
when it's through, it's through
Fate will twist the both of you
So come on baby come on over
Let me be the one to show you

CHORUS:
I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
Wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

CHORUS

Why be alone when we can be together baby
You can make my life worthwile
and I can make you start to smile

*one of my favourite songs :)

2005-11-03T11:24:00.000+08:00

holidays have officially started and this week was quite a blast :) practically wasted my time away on monday..was super bored and all..tuesday, met up with charles to buy some people's gift..LOLS..practically spent half the day finding for the perfect one..charles wants me to go to the gym with him on friday..should i go? first of all i am lazy to go but the thing is, i need to work out the flab..ugh..thats just so getting on my nerves..

then wednesday..gwen wong's birthday! HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN GWEN :) went to sentosa..suppose to tan and all but by the time we warmed our butts on the ground..mr sun got covered by the clouds..bish..but the wind was soothing..and it kind of made us sleepy and all..lols :) so we went to sakae for dinner :) ate like a pig, felt so bloated! we still had mango cake to eat! oh my..we were like smearing each other with cream and all..but at least it smells of mango =D my favourite! lols..love them man, namely, gwen,mel,grace and erica :))

well today's yet another public holiday..gg to rifdi's house..toodles :))

2005-10-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

exams are over! that was a few weeks back but anyway..i can finally think of other things rather then exams..heh heh..haven really been enjoying myself..because we have to return to school for LESSONS! tsk..i hate my school okay..other people get to have holidays until they get their results..us? we have to go to school for some silly bridging course..ugh..

oh i pierced a second ear hole =D i think it looks nice..haha..self praise..anyway, i am lost for words..nothing interesting happened so i'll be signing off..toodles =D i miss you baby :)

I'll be

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

Chorus
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

Repeat Chorus

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said

Repeat Chorus

2005-10-09T12:47:00.000+08:00

i has been forever since i have been here..the last paper is tmr! woo hoo..i can smell freedom..lols..shopping spree here i come =D i have been waiting all this while just for that day to come..

actually i dont really have much to say..not sure why also..maybe its because nothing interesting happened..bish..oh i love to watch one tree hill! that show rocks..haha..i love my baby <3 i miss him so much..

okay this is gg to be a short entry..will blog again when there's smth interesting :)

2005-09-13T17:41:00.000+08:00

i do not want to talk about my prelims and i shall not talk about it..it is such a dissapointment..i think i know where i see myself in the future..ugh..does putting in effort help at all? i dont think so..im like at my wits end already..you dont expect me to put in my effort now right? will it be of any help?

stop behaving like you're so desperate for smth..seriously if you want to get smth, go find it for yourself..please do not go to extend of taking things from other people and claiming it as your own..it wont work for anybody..not even me..i suggest you go get your own or else things will really go bad and it will all be thanks to you..

nothing much to say..not in the mood..ugh..

2005-08-23T12:37:00.000+08:00

in the midst of prelims now..man..and english paper yesterday..was quite alright..today's papers were physics and biology..physics was okay, at least i know how to do..but biology was super difficult..i dont think i'll be able to achieve the marks i want..sigh..

great, i have a sore throat..because of yesterday..bought a packet of maltesers and i ate the whole packet all by myself..ugh..now i have to suffer..crap..i was coughing thru out the whole examination..

BECAUSE OF YOU
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

; iloveyou

2005-08-20T12:22:00.000+08:00

jael, lek and me :)

2005-08-17T15:53:00.000+08:00

I HATE MYSELF FOR LOSING YOU

I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, ohI don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew

I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no

I hate myself for losing you(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything's said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

2005-08-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

im over and done with social studies! like finally (: haha..

i manage to do SBQ and i hopefully i do well, but i think i will so flunk my SEQ..that will be a guarantee..im sure..one more week to the rest of my papers..man..and my n levls will be coming..ahhhhh!

here's what i did during the 'short' holiday
on monday after sports carnival, went to town to meet up with jael and alicia..started to shop :) i manage to buy my stuff..haha..watched charlie and chocolate factory :) its a MUST to watch it!! super duper nice..if someone pays for me, i'll go watch with that person :) hur hur..

on tuesday i went out with my father's side..met up with clara and callie :)
weeee..went to marina square at 11am and guess what time i woke up, 1030am..it was rush,rush,rush..anyway ate lunch at marina square then walked to millena walk and went to this shop called candy empire :) its like sweets galore man..lols..and after eating a chocolate bar i became high..seriously high..i was practically crapping at everything..goodness!
went to safra at around 5 plus to bowl because my cousin was dying too..ate some buffet for dinner :) yummy! had to go on a diet after that..tsk..

well, i think i said enough..toodles :)

;iloveyou

2005-08-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

prelims are in one weeks time and im so called prepared, i guess..lols..oh i manage to do quite well in my biology..like finally :) i just have to focus on my accounts thats all..but i dont know where to start..goodness..

went for festival of praise on friday, it was superb :) the whole place was packed, i went with mel,gwen,geoky,grace,eunice,gwen lim and erica..i wanted to go again today but im afraid that i'll reach home very late so i didnt go..i like reached home at one am on friday..the concert ended kinda of late and we went to macs to eat because we didnt get to eat our dinner..haha..

went to nicholas's house on sat to bake dinesh's cake..i tell you when i reached there..the whole kitchen was a mess! im serious..goodness..i tell you if it wasn't for me, the cake wont turn out so nicely okay..haha :) but i must say nicholas's house is super NICE :) ooooohhhh..haha..and he has a cool mum, really! she looks so hip and all..haha..one more thing..he's elder brother is soooooo handsome..-screams..haha..i want to go to his house again! LOL..

okay..gotta run..toodles :)

2005-08-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

currently in school and i think the aircon is at full blast because i am super cold and my fingers are numb..brrrr x)

change of template..i think its simple..haha..but the words are meaningful..it really links to me..goodness..well, its just nice thats all..haha :)

well, my saturday wasn't that good..but jael and kel was there for me :) thanks babes :) haha..

2005-07-28T16:41:00.000+08:00

just finished mock exams, i think i am gonna do badly man..goodness..having chinese orals tmr..i will so screw that up..goodness..i can't speak proper chinese..tmr's my doomsday..im so looking forward to it..

there's like three exams next week & on tuesday there will be THREE mock exams on that day..what a wonderful life i have..gosh..okay this entry is gonna be short..my brain's not working..toodles :)

2005-07-25T18:29:00.000+08:00

im currently at dionne's house..it has been umpteen of years since i have been here..i know that for sure..hur hur..can't you see its a little dusty? haha..okay enough of my crap..

well i had the suckiest weekend, and i don't want to be reminded of it..thank you..i don't know why he can't just make up his mind..is it that difficult? thats why i will never understand guys..are they always like that? i just want the past times..will it ever happen again? i bet not..

school today was okay and eunice didn't come..poor girl..she's sick..there's like so many test tmr!! grrr..the teachers have seriously gone mad..they are such heartles freaks man..arghh..well i gotta start mugging for exams..

oops..gotta run..toodles (:

2005-07-10T19:00:00.000+08:00

two weeks of school has just passed..gosh! there's lke only 5 more weeks to my prelims..do i look prepared to you? noooo..and mrs loh was nagging at us the other day for like 45 mins? and she was those who get 8,9 or 10 points will have a contract next yr..smth like if there's no improvement in our work she'll kick us out of school and 'invite' us to go to ITE..im not saying that ITE is bad, its a good school..but she can't just do that..just because she's the principal..what? big shot is it? grrrr..i just get so pissed off when i see her..

anyway, we had a section outing yesterday..guess where? west coast park..the wierdest place to go to at night..goodness..well i had a little bit of fun..but i was kinda of grumpy too..i guess it was contagious because kel and jale felt that way too..hur hur..and it was phillip's birthday ystd so got "taupok"..haha..marcus also kena and his back was wet..haha..im ao glad i am a girl..LOL X)

well, i gotta go..toodles (:

2005-06-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOODNESS!! i just feel like breaking down..and i mean it..on the first day of school, teachers were already telling us how many more weeks to our prelims and stuff..which is let me see, 8 weeks? -faints

i feel so super stress man..do you know how time will zoom past just like that? i mean look, in a flash our june holidays are over..gosh! okay this will be short because my fingers are aching from all that hw..teachers just wanna see us die..how cruel..poo! toodles (:

2005-06-22T22:43:00.000+08:00

i think i am not destined to become a housewife next time..i burnt yet another pot today..goodness..at the rate i have burnt two pots already..so ya..hur hur x)

i manage to finish doing my maths paper and i have three characters left for the lit thing..YAY! :)) school will offically be open in four days time..gosh! i don't wanna go back to school..im still in a hoilday mood..when school starts i gotta start mugging again..no phone calls, no going out, no everything! rawr x)

I LOOOVVVEE THE IGNYTE SONG :)) god is just so awesome..the concerts were just so powerful, i could really feel his presence..it was so real! oh and jerry ong came too..and i guess he hasn't been to the salon for along time..haha..

okay..my fingers feel tired so im gonna stop here (:

2005-06-12T21:16:00.000+08:00

i finally get to blog..haha..one week of the hoildays have flew just like that..and i only have started on my literature homework..gosh!

here's a list of my holiday hw
1. Literature, some character analysis thing
2. Two english trial papers, from the TYS
3. Maths paper
4. Biology paper
5. Accounts worksheet
6. Social studies but i can't remember exactly what it is x)
7. One whole ton of maths tuition homework

so as you see this june holiday isn't really a hoilday to me..and on top of that my maid went back home for two weeks and i have to suffer when my parents are at work..because i will be doing the housework..man! extra load i tell you!

he's overseas now and im not so sure whether i miss him anot? well i gotta run..toodles (:

2005-06-07T22:28:00.000+08:00

i went out today but it was not so exciting..because i was so tired that i could fall asleep any moment..goodness! my mum bought me the jesse mccartney cd x) after much pestering and whining..haha..

and i have SIX new tops..like woah! all from paris..like wow :) and its super nice..i don't think you'll be able to find it in singapore..haha..but with them back i can't use the phone for more than 15 mins but i do break that rule at times..lols..how do you expect me to not talk to him for one day? i'll commit suicide man..just joking ..i won't go to that extent..haha..

anyway..my mind is drained from today's activities..so i gotta go..toodles :)

2005-06-04T20:38:00.000+08:00

i am at home when i am suppose to be at church..but don't ask me why..i feel super restless today..some moments i just feel like doing smth but some moments i just feel like staying put on one spot, not doing anything at all..don't ask why i am like that because i myself don't know..

are guys suppose to play hard to get or is it the girl's job to do it? he's like making my life so difficult..evryday i wonder to myself, should i or should i not carry on? ya sure i can give up but it will take like umpteen of yrs to do so..and guess what he's going overseas next saturday! man..i will not survive..he has moved on and everything but he is not prepared to get into a relationship..i mean i don't ask for much right? sigh..

; waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought, useless and disappointing

2005-06-02T13:58:00.000+08:00

let's have a track back on what happened ystd..haha..was suppose to blog but my stupid brother was using it till 2 in the morning!! like what the..

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met alicia and kelly in orchard because they were going to accompany me to meet him..ahaha..i thought i was late but the both of them were later and alicia didn't bring her phone again..haha..then we were like 10 mins late i think..we were gonna meet him at cineleisure, level five, you know where you buy the tickets and stuff so i called him and he said that he didn't see anyone there so he went down..then i told him we were there already but we were going to the toliet..then in the toliet i was freaking out like some idiot man..goodness..then when we came out of the toliet they were still not there so i decieded to wait..then i saw this guy wearing brown, coming up the escalator and it looked abit like him so i just stood there with the both of them and he walked past us..i was like thats him! and kelly was like okay okay he's taking out his phone and all of my sudden my phone started to ring..ahaha..it was super funny man..and i think he's blind cos when i said i was infront of him, he still couldn't see..haha..

so we went to watch monster-in-law since kelly already watched madagascar..he paid for our movie tickets first..ain't that nice? haha..i tell you he's super cute!! ahaha..in the cinema i sat next to him..ahahaha..and during the movie i felt like sleeping man! and kelly kept pushing me towards him..goodness!! i looove his smell man..haha..the movie was oh so nice..especially if you're watching with the love of your life..haha..then we went to yoshi to eat dinner but he didn't eat cos his friend was in a rush so while alicia and kelly went downstairs to buy fruits i was stuck with the both of them..i culd kinda of feel that my face was red..gosh! then he left..sigh..

at night i talked to him but for like only ten minutes cos he has a test the next day and he asked me why was my face red when i was talking to him at yoshi..i was like no..crap man! he asked whether i was blushing..goodness..how embarrasing!! haha..actually his face was kinda of red too and his hands were shaking when he talked to me..but he gave excuses..haha..

sigh..i wanna see him again :(

2005-06-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

Under the silver stars,
Right where he broke your heart.
Girl you know, I'd give you everything.
I wanna hold your hand,
And say the words he never said.
I'll make you promises you can believe.


[Chorus]
Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
Let me be the one,
Loving you when you're weak.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.

When you're down and you feel so lonely
Turn around, you can come to me
When you're down baby, i will be the only
Come to me

You can just be yourself,
'Cause I don't want nobody else.
All of your secrets are safe with me.
For the kind of love you can trust,
For more than just a crush,
Baby, won't you just come to me?

[Chorus]
Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
Let me be the one,
Loving you when you're weak.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.

When i got you in my arms
Say it's where you wanna be (where you wanna be, yeah)
'Cause girl i'm down on my knees
Promising my heart oh, my heart

2005-05-29T14:16:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY BROTHER!!! why can't he disappear for like one day? i will be the happiest girl you can ever find..im serious..he's like so getting on my nerves man..why can't he just show a little respect at all? i am not asking for much you know..

well today is a wet weather and i won't be going anywhere..or else i will be officially pronounced broke..haha..okay here's a schedule of what im doing for the next week because after that i'll be grounded for sure..im so prepared for the worse..so i shall 'enjoy' myself for the next week and after that is bye bye freedom..sigh..

oh ya..i wished everybody except him..oops..

YOU: all the best for monday's chinese o levels :) and remember 1st june okay? you better not oversleep or else i'll kill you man..haha..better study k? don't everytime go out k?

2005-05-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

this is gonna be a short entry cos i wanna wish all those taking their chinese o levels on monday..ALL THE BEST!!

TO: all the sec fours in sacss that i know and they know me :)

MY CHURCH FRIENDS:)
-alicia
-kelly
-jael
-jean lek
-germaine
-marcus
-jamien
-khing

i think thats about all..sorry if i have forgotten to put your name down :)

2005-05-26T19:38:00.000+08:00

actually i don't really have the mood to blog and all cos i got back my result and i so do not want to talk about it..i don't even think i'll be talking to him too..when i saw my result could feel myself like shattering..literally..it is one of the worse results i have ever acheived..i deproved like tremendously..-crys

sigh..im excited that my parents are coming back soon & im not so excited that they are coming back soon..the reason is simply because they are going to scold me till their saliva goes dry..im serious!! my mum is so so so gonna be disappointed with me..gosh! how u tell me..and she was so sacarstic okay? man..even if you were joking, you don't have to put it that way okay? so what if you did so much better? huh?

well lets just say im so slog like mad until my prelims and school is gonna give extra help..so i bet you will slack since i know you so well..and i will do better than you!! RAWR!! im on the verge of killing myself already pls..

2005-05-25T17:49:00.000+08:00

school's ending tomorrow and im not the least bit excited..wanna know why? let me tell..we are gonna get our report books tomorrow and i can gladly say that i did very very very badly..way beyond my expectations man..go ahead laugh, i do not give a damn okay? and the best thing is I STUDIED!!!! thats the part that reallt pisses me off..best of all..she is now so much better than me..do you think i can accept that? NOOOO..

okay i better cool down..on a better note..i'll be going out with him during the holidays..ahahaha :) im so so happy..and i asked him whether he culd teach me accounts and guess what he said? YES!! lols..im so gonna pass with flying colours..ahaha..just joking..

okay i gotta bathe..then do my hw then sleep..super tired =x

2005-05-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

there was no lessons today..woo-hoo..so i went out with mel and cherie..or else i would have been rotting at home..haha..so we met at two in the afternoon and cherie was all the way at heeren when we were suppose to meet at bugis..silly girl..

okay so cherie met us at bugis and we ate mos burger..cherie was talking crap because she claimed that she didn't sleep well but i don't know whether its true..haha..then we decided to take neoprint..and boy was it hilarious esp with cherie around..the pics were really nice i must say..lols..and mel was like lets take again..and me and cherie were like why don't you pay then we will take..and you should have seen the look on mel's face..haha..then mel's hands were itchy to buy stuff and my hands too were itchy to buy stuff..so she got herself a pair of earrings and i bought myself a fourskins shirt..its sooo nice :) i looove it!! poor cherie couldn't buy anything cos she was broke..poor girl..haha..

hmmm..then we decided to head home cos there was nth else to see..hur hur..so we waited for the train and it was super long..so we started taking pics..like nobody's busniess..haha..it was super funny..er..i gotta slp soon..there's school tmr..but its a half day :)..weeeee..

2005-05-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!! haha..im in my mother's office now..i thought we were going to shop but noooo..anyway we will be going for a little while cos i have tuition..poo! dad says i can stop english tuition but i have to go for another language lesson?! like hello? goodness..im taking my n levels this yr..mind you..

er..i think i made a mistake..i can't believe u said that u will not ignore me but in the end look what u have done..i know it is still in the midst of your exams but at least tell me not ignore me..won't u just spare some time? just some..thats all i ask for :(

well..i am a sad person i mean for my love life and all but i think i deserve it..sigh..

2005-05-01T18:39:00.000+08:00

its labour day today but i guess that doesn't really apply to me..lols..exams are in two days am i only less than 50 % prepared..i guess..LOL..ystd i missed my chance of eating country manna..gosh! they culd have out it on a sunday u know? rawr! just because my cousin had to attend to smth..and my aunt was disappointed with me..hello? its not my fault u know..

anyway..im planning to get at least a b3 for english, a1 for maths and a2 for accounts..as it adds up to 7 pts and its below 10 pts so i guess that is okay? and ms masura wants me to get 4 pts..*faints..that is so difficult esp when im not say very focused on studies..haha..

its over between the both of us..yet another mistake..does it always have to repeat itself..gosh..i give up..

2005-04-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

okay it has been like what more than a month since i have blogged..gosh..i have been really busy so i totally forgot that my blog was still existing..LOL..exams are in about less than a months time and i haven really started..the problem with me is that im always telling myself..study study study..in the end you'll see me doing other things..goodness..how you tell me?

syf is in two days time and im super stressed..why? cos the other groups that have gone are achieving either gold or silver..i mean if you are in my shoes won't you think its stressful too? plus we dancers always get blamed..have you ever heard even ONE good comment about us? nooooo..its just a slipshot one okay..ARGH..it just pisses me off..

ermmm..im short of things to write..shoots..okay i have to run..ciao:)

; i almost wished you would have loved me too.

2005-03-25T14:20:00.000+08:00

at alicia's house now and i went tanning!! :) and i look darker hopefully i stay the same colour..please please please..lols..her house is super nice la..bwahaha :x we tanned from 11 am to 1 pm and i tell you the sun was supa hot! was nearly a roast chicken..haha..

im gonna write him a letter and hopefully he will be okay with it..sigh..hmmm..this entry is gonna be short because i have to go soon..haha..well see ya soon :)

*Day by day im waiting for my price to arrive but i guess that it will be long before that day comes..

2005-03-05T12:58:00.000+08:00

its saturday again but a pile of homework is waiting for me..how exciting!! *poo:x
okay yesterday mrs loh was telling about the past year's results..hello? we are already so stressed about it and she expects so much from us?! what's this world coming to?

i just got back my progress card and i tell you its a sad case man..everything is like moderate..rawr:x..super pissed..trying to study pls? argh..

okay this will be a very i reapeat very short entry..not really in the mood to write already..so see ya:)

One last by Taufik:)
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there’s nothing wrong
Let’s stay here for a while
andCherish every moment we’re in denial
We both know
It’s better if we just let it go

2005-02-19T12:39:00.000+08:00

it has been a very loooong time..simply can't put myself to study but he keeps forcing me too..haha..acconts is geting more difficult day by day..but with yi zhi's help i think i will be able to do some qns..haha..

its been 3 wks..and i had the time of my life..i have never i repeat never felt so happy in my entire life..i think i have really found my happiness..on v day he gave me a bracelet & card..i think its very nice..haha..

this entry is gonna be short because nothing interesting happened..*poo..well im sick all thanks to him..haha..gotta go..we'll be back soon..hopefully?

2005-01-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

i can finally blog!! i manage to squeeze time to blog..school has been suffocating me & i really mean literally..

had a day camp for 3 days which is okay..the first day was like OH MY GOODNESS!! its the most boring day i have ever experience..let's just say there was talks after talks..boring right?
okay then the 2nd day was fun fun fun =] we had outdoor activities & there was this super cute guy..haha =]

okay i've found the right person..i just feel very safe with him..really..oh heard some stuff ystd..it was SO unbelievable..i can't even digest it man!! but why bother when i have already found the man of my dreams..haha=]

school starts again tomorrow..argh!! there we go again..sigh..i gotta go..tk care=]

*i rather have my heart broken then break someone else's heart..

2005-01-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

school is AHHHH..gonna die any minute..one day you'll not be able to see charisse dyeo pei xuan in action..im serious!! well today had tuition & my teacher gave one PILE of hw and i have to finish by when? saturday!! so goin mad la..

cried yesterday & today..i think im goin thru mood swings huh? sigh..why is everybody liking her man?! give me one reson just ONE!! okay i know my character sucks & all but im so trying to change..why can't your just give a chance, change your perspective, whatever..

i feel like just giving up on everthing..i don't see any point in continuing anymore..i really don't..you want me to wait..i mean i will & everything but at the way you're treating me..do you think i can? i really dunno..

2005-01-09T17:05:00.000+08:00

school has started!! ahhhh..its sooooo hectic man..teachers are forever telling us that we're big girls..blahblahblah..we like already know but they keep reminding us..do you know how irritating it is? oh and im taking my 'n' levels this yr..more stress!!

okie..i kinda of told him again but he said that he doesn't want to go into any r/s..i mean i can understand..sigh..well im not so sure whether he still likes them..but hopefully not..lols..just joking =] its not up to me to choose right?

went to lau pa sat today..alicia told me some stuff..wahahas..was freakin shocked..wait! im suppose to forget..hahas..then i was like super urgent la..i tell you im so gonna have stones in my bladder..lols..oh he hold my bag for me..wahahahs =]

okay i gotta get going..listening to radio..the song rocks man..quite a long time never play yeah?
sayanora!

*will i be there in the middle of the night?
will i keep the rain from falling into your life?
i promise,i promise,i promise i will

2004-12-31T09:20:00.000+08:00

its quite a loooonngg time since i blogged..well many things happened..and i tell you its countless..i can't even count it with my fingers!!

i received alot of presents during christmas!! woo-hoo =]..and i simply love each and every one of them..well my bbq was a blast even though some other jerk open his own..okay so what if his house is bigger..cmon you don't have to be sucha show-off you know..

i ask myself does love always have to be tragic? and does it always have to turn out sour? it always has to be two people in my mind, and i have to choose one..do you know how difficult it is? let's just say one of them has given up on me & i mean TOTALLY..was i upset? kinda of because i knew that it will not work out..and i guess it was just my intuition that explain it all..

*it seems like you are drifting away from me day by day, but i all i want is to have you by my side, loving me forever..

2004-12-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

its me..its been quite a long time yeah? sigh..yesterday was the saddest day of my life..my grandfaher was cremated..it will always be a scar in my heart..i really miss him..lord i pray that you
will be him, in jesus name i pray..it was very sudden..and i couldn't go for church camp but even if i went i won't have the mood..sigh..i missed my chance to be in the same group with some people..im rather sad for this both situations..but god just place it like that..

saw joshua..goodness..he still looks good..he even asked me for a pen..i didn't like have a expression on my face..and i missed my chance to ask it back..but why bother? hahs..that ah boon kor kor also keep disturbing me..he's quite nice too but the age limit is way too far!!! hahas..saw clarissa my baby cousin..
so cute!!!saw jac too..quite nice to talk too..oh ya! and karen yi yi..she was so sweet..had a few conversations with her..during the whole cremation thingy she was beside me..i really want to thank her..
maybe when i see her again?

anyways..my mind i really confused..i really really want to settle down..i do not always want to envy people..do you understand that? i bet nobody does..it matters to me so so so much..was it because of what i did last time? i don't wanna think about it anymore!!

2004-12-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

*burps*..just finish eating..gonna burst..hahas..i have FINALLY completed kwyb!!! hooray for me!!

guess who's my camp leader man..hahas..oh man..but im not the same group as nat alredy..sad!!
now i won't know whose in the same group as me..great! im alone again..sigh..i can't believe he was in the same class..so i had to be stuck with that * for 5 whole hours..you think i survived..NOOOOO!!!

when i reach home i called leon..but that boy never pick up his phone..don't know where he went..call charmaine she finally picked up BUT she said she was busy..after that called her again..she not at home liao..aiyoh..

YAY!! camp is in what three days..im soooooo excited man!! i'll meet face to face with him!! hahas..

okie i gotta go..need to call that boy boy..bye!! =]

2004-11-28T17:47:00.000+08:00

*yawnx*..just woke up from tired..was super tired today..slept like a log i tell you..yesterday was one of the worst day of my life..let's begin..

had to usher yesterday..so no choice right? my darling kelly went back to her hometown already so no one there to crap around with me..sigh..all fo them had like their own pairs..me? of course not..then why will i be writing this..anyway..i just felt so fan..like nothing & i really mean nothing was goin right..it was just wrong wrong wrong..then when my parents fetch me from the bus-stop on the way home..just because i didn't greet them my mum started yelling at me..hello? i have like done that so mani times but she doesn't say anything? excuse me having pms is it?

oh and before this incident..this jerk who i simply loathe now was showing me attitudae prob..okae i know i have done something to you..i just wanna be friends again..it is that simple..forget it if you don't get the hint from all the incidents..than i have no choice but give up..

life simply sucks right..i so agree with that..does it always have to reapeat..im getting so sick & tired man..

2004-11-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

im backk!! it has been quite a long time since i update..aniwaes..my aunt is back from japan that means i have to go back to work..sigh..i have been slacking for the whole holiday..want to start revising for next time..but simply don't have the time..

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let's talk about yesterday..we had a section outing..we went to botanic gardens..i manage to get a tan!! hahas..plus there was this real cute guy in my group..ahhhhh!! goin mad..hopefully he comes to church this sat..please come..hahas..then after went to town with alicia..best jie..walk and walk and walk..saw a few people..oh i saw becky with this other girls plus monkey head..bao ming!! he couldn't recognise me at first..then met up with alicia's brother..super funni!! he had a *nice* hairdo!! hahas..

its never right..what if i like him again? why does it always happen to me? i mean like if we become frens again..and the feelings happen again..i won't let the same thing happen because i don't want to lose him ever..