i always thought it was still a long way, but now its right infront of me..deep inside i really dont wish to go, but i know it will make you happy..this job you're currently in now, is not up to your standard or thats what i claim..but by leaving i will have to give up everything here & it will not be a easy task..

i may sound a little emo, but seriously its quite serious..my dad is going for a job interview in brisbane this sun, if he gets it our whole family will be going there for a whole three yrs..and i will be the first to go with my dad..to my parents it may seem like a good thing, but to me its not..

letting go of everything here will not be esy, you may say its three yrs but in three yrs many things can happen..im just feeling quite moody this few days, because of this current situation..im really seeking god and asking him if this is the right thing & that is what he wants us to do..

in the mean time, i have to mentally get prepared.

on top of that, results will be coming out soon..i just want to pass, i just want to be able to go somewhere..thats all i ask for..

its just so hard for me to even look at you, knowing that its all nothing.

all thanks to my siblings, the computer cant be use..only today is exceptional, because my brother has to send something to my dad..at least they didnt lock the tv or else i would be suffering ):

the swellness has gone down alot and its all thanks to some cream which i call the miracle medicine (: HAHA! mum should have given it to me long ago but she forgot, but i dont blame her since she's busty with work and stuff (:

results are going to be out on the second week of feb! nervous,excited,mixed feelings? but why does it have to ruin v-day & cny? actually v-day is not really a big thing for me, i was so bored that day that i actually came up with this slogan, happy day for couples & sad day for singles..really dumb, i know..LOL (: im sure when we go visting, all the relatives will come up to you, swarming you with questions..so not enjoyable ):

i love this song from hillsongs,

when boredom strikes again (:

FAVOURITE
Kind of pants: skinny jeans/pants
Number: 08 (:
Animal: dogs & hamsters
Drink: green tea
Sport: swimming
Month: december, xmas!
Cartoon character: not sure.

HAVE YOU EVER
Been close to dying: NOOO.
Loved someone so much it made you cry: sadly, yes
Broke a bone: nope
Played truth or dare: yes
Ran away: not daring to do so, lol :D
Broke someones heart: hmmmm
Cried over someones death: yes
Cried in school: yes
Fell off your chair: yes, who hasnt? (:
Saved e-mails: yes
Used someone: nooo

WHAT IS..
Your good-luck charm: god? not really good luck but my protector (:
Your favorite song: mighty to save, hillsongs (:
Next to you: my bro's bed
Your pet peeve: ?
Motivations: friends & family (:

EVER HAD..
Chicken Pox: yess
Soar throat: of course
A one night stand: no way!

DO YOU..
Believe in love at first sight: at times
Long distance relationships: there must be trust (:
Like school: yesss! i miss school!
Get along with your family: yess (:
Wear contact lenses or glasses: both
Like filling out surveys: when im really bored, lol :D
Like yourself: i guess i do (:

WHO..
Was the last person who called you: leon
Makes you smile the most: my babes, alicia & jeanette! (:
Knows you best: my mum, alicia & jeanette (:

ARE YOU..
Obsessive complusive: no way!
Suicidal: bigger NO

YESTERDAY DID YOU..
Talk to someone you liked: how i wish
Buy something: no
Get sick: nope
Miss someone: YESSS ):
Talk to an ex: yupp

LAST PERSON WHO..
Slept in your bed: myself? :D
Saw or heard you cry: some of my cell people
Went to the movies with: not one person, a group of them (:
Told you they loved you: my lil brother (:
You said I love you to: said it back to my lil brother (:
You fought with: my sister?
You made fun of: my sister (:
Made fun of you: leon! haha (:

PICK ONE..
Are you righty or lefty: righty
Scary or Funny movie: funny (:
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate!
Coffee or Tea: coffee, starbucks!
Summer or Winter: winter (:
Diamond or Pearl: diamonds, ooh :D
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
Strawberry or Watermelon: watermelon
Citrus or Berry: berry

RANDOM
Hated anyone in your family: noooo
Good singer: not very sure.
What was your last dream about: that i had a golden retriever! (:
When did you last shower: last night?
What book are you reading now: none
Best feeling in the world: being loved (: & being happy!
What's underneath your bed: dust particles?
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: nope
What are you most scared of right now: RESULTS!!
Are you lonely right now: not really.
Song thats stuck in your head right now: gia farrell, hit me up!
First thing you notice on opposite sex: eyes & smile
Are you to shy to ask someone out: yess
What are you wearing right now: tee and shorts
Favorite flower: roses & daises (:
How many pillows do you sleep with: 2
Single or Taken: sadly, single

i just love all this icons sent by the oh so wonferful jeanette (: AHAHA! well, i finally did the surgery and boy i tell you its sooo uncomfortable ): at least it will only be for three days, but for full recovery it will take at least two weeks..

I've been wishing on a star but
I never could have imagined
I would land just where you are after all this lonesome travelling
Took one look in your eye, reached out to hold your hand
This is when I realized what I could never understand

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

So you wanna be my friend, so you wanna be my lover
With you I do confess I can't be one without the other
That was hard for me to say, I hope I said it right
Which ever, come what may, you see I need to know tonight

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

Do you want to play these cards, do you want to lay them down?
Do you want to run away or do you want to stick around?

Do you want to be my one and only love?
Do you want to be my one and only love?

its either one or the other

god is really good (: the rain was on & off, tham sang the rain song and all i could do was pray (: to our surprise, the moment we stepped into siloso beach it stopped raining! and mr sun was out (: it was super hot! tham was quite annoyed with this bunch of guys, i was a little..could see they were showoffs..haha! and i one point i learnt today, ang mohs are really very open..we saw this lady from far and i thought she was pregnant, because the size of her stomach was huge..it actually turn out not as i expected..and she was like a middle age lady..

must really look up to this people man, so daring! well we tanned and crapped..after a while, we got kind of bored so we decided to head down to vivo..for your info, its my first time there..i know your gonna think, so long still haven go..BUT, its quite far from where i stay luhs..haha! the place is just really big, the sky garden looks simple but tham said its nicer at night (: after walking around, we headed to tham's house..which is just three bus stops away..so convenient right? (:

today i ate alot, and i really do mean alot..didnt take much pictures but its okay (: i got to spend time with my gf! (: i cant wait till my sister gets her hamsters, tham's hamster is so cute! bacon (: but shes sick, so poor thing ): i hope she gets well soon! (:

well, i think i need my rest now (:

wet, rainy weather ): when boredom comes, this is what i'll do..took this from gf's blog (: hope you dont mind (:

INTRODUCTION:
Full Name: Charisse Dyeo Pei Xuan
Birthday: 27 September1989
Birthplace: Singapore
Eye Color: Black
Hair Color: A little of red and brown(cos i dyed my hair before)
Height: 163cm
Weight: Cant be disclosed :D
Right handed or Left handed? Right
Your Heritage: Chinese
My Worst Habit: Commenting on people & thinking too much
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Shoe Size: 7
Parents Still Together? yes
The Footwear You Wore Today: didnt go out today
Your Weakness: quite a handful
Your Fears: failures
Your Perfect Pizza: lotsa cheese pls? (:
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: LOL (:
Thoughts First waking up: what im going to do for the day
Your Best Physical Feature: dont have one :x
Bedtime: depends
Your Most Missed Memory: friends and teachers in SAC!

MY FAVORITES:
Favorite color? Red, gold, green, black, silver
Food? I love food! (:
Sport? swimming & cycling
Animal? Dogs
Ice Cream? mango,chocolate chip & mint chocolate chip
Candy? anything will do.
Store? no fav.
Salad Dressing? no fav.
Actor/actress/band? channing tantum,rachel bilson,98 degrees (:
Song?: too many!
Letter? not too sure (:
Number? 08
Holiday? Europe,Australia and Hawaii
Season? winter!
Toothpaste Flavor? Minty
Radio Station: 98.7 fm
Perfume? Escada
Body part on the opposite sex? smile (:


FRIENDS AND LIFE:
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up? a good wife & have a good job
How Do You Want To Die? with the one i love (:
Turn ons: people who love to smile (:
Turn offs: hypocrites.
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You? JEANETTE :) we're so alike!
Who's The Loudest? jeanette, eunice and sometimes me! :D
Who Makes You Laugh The Most? all my friends do (:
Who Have You Known The Longest? some of the sec 5s :)
Who's The Shyist? nobody i think.
When have you cried the most?: cant remember.
What Is The Best Feeling In The World? Being loved (:
Worst Feeling? Being lonely.
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up? anywhere with my future husband :D
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be? My temper.
How Long Do You Think You'll Live? ask my God :D

HAVE YOU EVER:
Been In Love? Yesss (:
Been To Juvie? No
Mooned Someone?: No
Been rejected?: Yes
Pictured Your Crush Naked? No, eeww!
Skipped School? Skipped lessons, yes (:
Thought About Suicide? No.
Slept Outside? guess so.
Laughed So Hard You Cried? Yupp.
Cried In School? Yes
Thrown Up In School? No.
Wanted To Be a Model? Cant qualify.
Cheated On Someone? Hard to answer.
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today? yupp.
Seen A Dead Body? Yes
Drank Alcohol? Yes
Smoked? NO! UGH.
Been On Drugs? NO!
.Eaten Sushi? Yes, love it!
Been On Stage? Yes
Gone Skinny Dipping? LOL! NO
Shoplifted? NO!
Been Drunk? No
Been Beaten Up? No

DO YOU:
Swear? when im really pissed.
Sing Well? No way
Shower Daily?: Yes
Want To Go To College? Yes
Want To Get Married? Yes
Believe In Yourself? Sometimes
Get Motion Sickness? No
Think You Are Attractive? No
Get Along With Your Parents? on & off
Like Thunderstorms? NO!
Play An Instrument? piano but a little only
Own An IPOD? Nope
Pray? Yes
Go To Church? Yes, and i'm loving it :)
Sleep With Stuffed Animals? Nope
Keep A Journal/Diary? Yes
Dance In The Rain? No, walked in the rain :)
Sing In The Shower? Yess (:

THIS OR THAT:
Pepsi or Coke? Coke
McDonald's or Burger King? Macs
Single or Group Dates? single
Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries? Strawberries
Meat or Veggies? Meat
TV or Movie? Movie
Guitar or Drums? Guitar
Adidas or Nike? Nike
Chinese or Mexican? Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes? Corn Flakes
Cake or Pie? Cake
MTV or VH1? MTV
Blind or Deaf? none
Boxers or Briefs? Boxers

CAN YOU:Do
Splits? i wish i could
Write With Both Hands? YES (:
Whistle? Yes
Blow A Bubble? Yes
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle? No
Cross Your Eyes? No
Walk With Your Toes Curled? Yes
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose? Nope
Dance? everyone can
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry? at times

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON:
You Touched: LOL, my mum
You Talked To On The Phone: mel
You Text: jeanette & alicia
You Instant Messaged: jeanette
You Hugged: alicia
You Yelled At: younger brother
You Played A Sport With: cant remeber! :D

WHAT'S THE LAST:
Time You Laughed? yesterday when i was talking to keith
Time You Cried? cant remeber when.
Movie You Watched? the holiday (:
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed? the minty kind.
Joke You Told? not that i remember, LOL (:
Song You've Sung? i believe from honey soundtrack

RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT:
Where Are You? at home, in front of the computer
What Can You See Out Your Window? swimming pool & the other blocks
Are You Listening To Music? say goodbye, chris brown
What Are You Wearing? fbts & school PE tee
What's On Your Mousepad? the mouse?

BELIEFS:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? No
Do you believe in miracles? Yess with god, everything is possible (:
Magic? No
Love at first sight? guess so
God? YESS! DEFINETLY! :D
Satan? yeah!
Ghosts? No
Santa? No
Evolution? No

IN A BOY...:
Fav Eye Color: Doesn't really matter
Fav Hair Color: Natural is the best (:
Short or Long Hair: Short
Height: Taller than me (:
Weight: Doesn't matter..
Best Clothing Style: Whatever they like.

RANDOM:
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit? Europe
Number Of CD's I Own: a handful
Your Good Luck Charm: dont have one
How many pillows do you sleep with? 2 (:
Do you drink milk? Not really, prefer soya bean milk (:
Person You Hate Most: hate is too strong, detest?
Do you think God has a gender? hmmm.
Where do you think we go when we die? Heaven (:
How many rings until you answer the phone? not sure, once it rings i just pick it up
Are you a health freak? Not really
What is the worst weather?: when its humid!
Did you play with Barbies as a child? Yess and polly pockets (:
How many grades have you failed? not very sure, have to check my report book (:

im finally done! ahaha (: now i have to go think of other things to do..

ignyte launch was a blast! :D had to reach church at 9 am but it was all worth it :) the high-ness in the toliet while doing make up, disturbing alicia, singing at the top of our voices :) it was all so fun! i <3 the dance ministry! :D

haven been blogging for the longest time as my internet crashed, thanks to the earthquake in wherever..but its all right now (:

now if i wrote you a love note,
and make you smile at every word i wrote,
what would you do?