i know what everybody's reaction will be, FINALLY! ahaha : D

work has been quite alright. but i just cant understand some people. thinking that by taking all the credit and attention, people will notice them more and etc. but i think he doesnt deserve it at all. seriously.

but of course there is nice people there (: like adrian who never fails to make me laugh my head off, rebecca and joanna who are the sweetest (: and the rest of them are really nice too (:

so anyone who has the desire to work in the hotel industry in the future, please feel free to come to me for advice. lol (: all sessions are chargeable. AHAHA : D

come to think of it, i cant bear to leave my workplace ): well, i have to start school. which i am quite excited for (:

can you believe it, i have not received my pay! geez. i could have collected it on monday BUT the stupid far east organization spelled my name as charrisse on the cheque. so no choice, have to sent it back. i cant wait any longer you know! so many things to but for school (:

there's a wedding show at the hotel tmr, but im not involved. irene said im too expensive. lol. thats because im paid by the hour. ahaha : D

church tmr (: i can meet up with my babes! (: miss them like crazy. really!! lol (:

i need to sleep soon, super tired. goodnight (:

do not ask me why im still up now. i wanted to blow dry my hair and the computer looked kinda tempting, so i switched it on and i have been using it till now. haha. and i had a heart ot heart talk with my dear girlfriend (: have not done that for ages but i really enjoyed it (: and thanks alot babe for listening to me & encouraging me (:

parade of ministries! really fun, something new & interesting. had to learn the dance in four hours but i think it was all worthwhile (: i, charisse dyeo made a mistake. somebody kill me pls. it was just so nerve-wrecking. i dont know why but unil now i still get the jitters when i go up on stage. hmmm. still wondering. lol.

i feel like taking leave on mon. as there's a bbq tmr (: kazue and yukie will be leaving on mon ): but we get to see callie's bf! ahaha : D tmr's gonna be real fun (: yayness! pls tell me shld i take leave? sacrifice my pay. lol. its going to be a no pay leave. geez.

seeking god on this will be tough. its not a issue that ppl will seek god for. i think. asking him whether i should or should not seems so wrong. i dont know. but its really killing me, squeezing the life out of me. i dont want my feelings/emotions to overule my life. you know?

it just has come to that stage. that stage where its labelled as 'youre the one for me'. and can you imagine how it feels when i dont even know whats going through your mind?

i dont want it to turn out bad, but if i dont do it. i'll be wondering and pondering.

someone tell me what to do?